章)The streets were bustling with people coming and going, each preoccupied with their own affairs. Unless necessary, no one would spare a glance for others. The men and women brushing past each other were mostly busy and numb, occasionally a standout elite would flash among the mediocre crowd, but they would vanish in an instant. Like a small wave inadvertently rising on the sea surface, though beautiful, it disappears in a moment.
If you are born ordinary and not talented, thats one thing. But if heaven has given you a smart brain that surpasses others, and you still end up as an mediocre person, do you regret it? Especially if its due to your own reasons. No one knows what others think, but Xu Xu is one who regrets, wishing to start over. Xu Xu sat on the roadside curb, unable to help but feel this way.
Xu Xu attributed such whimsical thoughts to a web novel he had stumbled upon recently. The content of the novel was very fantastical, the writing was not so good as to be memorable, nor was it like Lu Xuns realistic satire, but a fast-food style of entertainment novel, with no great depth. However, one point made Xu Xu envious to the point of obsession, almost to the point of madness, and also made him start to re-examine his own twenty-nine years of life.
How to put it, being exceptionally intelligent was the unanimous evaluation of all teachers from Xu Xus primary school to high school. Just listening to the first half of this sentence is definitely a compliment, but there is also a latter half, which is although intelligent but, finally shaking his head and sighing, the nature immediately becomes neutral. Even Xu Xu himself was sometimes surprised, but he had to admit that he was indeed very smart.
From childhood to adulthood, no matter how difficult and abstruse the text was, Xu Xu could almost recite it completely after reading it once. Teachers often said that Xu Xu had a photographic memory. And in middle school, no matter how difficult the proof problem was, Xu Xu could always solve it in the fastest and simplest way, often winning the teachers gratified praise and the envious eyes of his classmates.
All of this should have been an advantage, but it also became Xu Xus disadvantage. Although he had a smart brain, Xu Xu had a fatal flaw: he only had a three-minute passion for everything, quickly becoming interested and learning quickly. For example, he still remembers that he became fascinated with the guitar in middle school. At that time, there was a senior high school student who played the guitar and sang while sitting on the leading platform of the sports field during the annual New Years Day party. The sunlight passed through the clouds and shone on him. The usually unremarkable senior student looked extraordinarily unrestrained and attractive at that moment, making people yearn for it.
So Xu Xu became fascinated with the guitar. In order to be like that senior student, Xu Xu used his summer vacation to buy a guitar and signed up for a guitar class. He still clearly remembers the brand of the guitar, which was Parrot Brand, and it almost cost all the pocket money Xu Xu had saved from childhood.
Very quickly, in just over a month, Xu Xu had already played very well, at least he could play chords, and he was outstanding in the entire class. At that time, the guitar teacher later formed a well-known domestic orchestra, which shows that he was indeed very, even in todays era, that guitar teacher should be an absolute artistic handsome guy.
He was very surprised by Xu Xus comprehension at the time. At the end of the class, he gave Xu Xu an address, saying that if he had time, he could go to find him, and he could teach Xu Xu for free. However, Xu Xu, who had achieved the dream of singing and playing, was soon attracted by other things, and the guitar was thrown into the corner of the room and ignored.
Xu Xu has never seriously listened to the teachers class, and the class is basically used to read extracurricular books under the cover of textbooks. If there is something that Xu Xu has insisted on for twenty-nine years, it should be reading. Of course, its reading books other than textbooks, from Jin Yong to Qiong Yao, from Red and Black to Dream of the Red Chamber, from Three Kingdoms to One Hundred Years of Solitude, all books, except for textbooks, have a great attraction to Xu Xu, and he has insisted on reading them until today.
In addition to this, Xu Xus twenty-nine years of life can be described as mediocre. He is neither beautiful nor ugly, with a height of 163, which is also mediocre. In addition, due to Xu Xus carelessness, his academic performance has always been mediocre from elementary school to middle school, learning guitar, calligraphy, and even ice skating and dancing. Although he has a wide range of interests and is versatile, no matter which one is mediocre and mediocre. After graduating from elementary school, he took an mediocre exam and got an mediocre middle school. After graduating from middle school, he took an mediocre exam and got an mediocre high school. The college entrance examination was mediocre, and he could only go to an mediocre college, and the major was also mediocre engineering budget.
After graduation, of course, he naturally became an mediocre engineering budgeting staff member. From the party A supervisor to the party B contractor, they could all point fingers at him, which was not as good as a little sister. Of course, the salary is also mediocre, and so on. At least he should be able to find an mediocre boyfriend, get married and have children, and live an mediocre life. Unfortunately, until now, he has not won the favor of a man.
Of course, except for the time when he played and sang the guitar on Teachers Day in junior high school, there were several green boys who had a crush on him, but at that time, he seemed to be unenlightened. But when he became enlightened, he found that almost all his friends had gotten married and had children. Even when he went shopping, he couldnt find a partner, and he became an mediocre leftover woman, not a golden leftover woman, but a grassroots class leftover woman.
Xu Xu sighed in secret, and behind him was the messy construction site he had just left. Above was the high-standing rebar frame, looking up, you could see the workers wearing safety hats working back and forth, looking small from below, like the residents of the little peoples country in fairy tales. But Xu Xu knew that looking down from above, it was more superior. No matter the flow of vehicles or pedestrians, they are all as insignificant as ants, which is probably why the floors where those elites work are getting higher and higher.
Organizing his thoughts that had been wandering for a long time, he looked at the drawings in his hand. No matter what, this still needs to be recalculated. Since he cant be reborn, life must go on in this mediocre way. Xu Xu sighed long and stood up and walked inside. He still had to meet the so-called senior engineer who had just scolded him without any face, to confirm the relevant data. He had to bow for five pecks of rice, which is probably the helplessness of all modern people. After all, being aloof means unemployment, and reality is very cruel.
He turned back and looked at the place where he had just sat, and there was a small garbage dump behind it, with half a chicken rib thrown there by someone, which was rotten and messy. Xu Xu couldnt help but feel a move in his heart, thinking of the idol version of the shocking TV series Three Kingdoms that was broadcast last night. A sentence said by Cao Cao flashed through his mind in an instant:
"Chicken rib! Chicken rib! Tasteless to eat, but a pity to throw away."
Its really classic. In this way, it seems that his life is also like a chicken rib, which is very fitting. Turning around, he suddenly felt a huge shadow on his head, with a whistling wind coming down, and in the end, Xu Xu only remembered the eyes and fearful expression of the migrant workers on the opposite construction site. Xu Xu closed his eyes, and what flashed through his mind was, if I live again, my life must be taken seriously.